Blahg

Lately, I have been feeling like my blog is more like a blahg. I have been challenged with time to sit and really write. This is part of an ongoing problem. I am trying so hard lately to fit things for ME into my schedule. I am trying to workout more, write more, visit more, and yes work more. I don't know how much more I can fit in. There are so many things I think I am missing out on if I don't take the time to plan on doing things for ME. I have found one problem, some of the things exclude Bella. That doesn't make me happy. I can't take her to the gym, she freaks out in the nursery. I do go to the home computer and sit and write (now and then) but I always end up feeling guilty if she is awake and I am not instead, spending the time with her. And to top it all off there has been a lot of talk at my house about planning the next baby. Jees! I am really feeling the squeeze here. It kindof crimps my creative mind. I am finally feeling like I have the sense of a normal life since Bella was born. I have gotten nearer to my pre-baby body (not near enough) and I am sad to think about how that has to change for baby2. To conclude, I am trying harder with this blog so I may jump on some of the ultra cute blog ideas bandwagon. And, I am very excited about the baby2 chatter and I almost cry instantly when I think about it. It's just one of those things. How does one prepare to be the arms and legs of another person, still have to be everything but to a wild one-year-old and keep herself on the schedule??? I'm not coming up with any other answer than this: I just have to close my eyes, jump in head first, and see what happens.....haaaah....exhale.