I Vow

This should make some of you laugh...I am vowing not to let myself go when I get pregnant.

I know. It's sounds naive and cocky and...well...stupid. But, I owe it to myself. My arms were like pancakes and my back like a 90 year old after I gave birth and consequently for the next ten months I had little success exercising without pain.

I want to give myself a leg muscle to stand on for what's probably going to be the craziest, most exhausting time of my life. After the first months of Bella's life I developed the TMS symptoms that plagued my arms, neck, back and shoulders with pain. I remember doing jumping jacks without my arms and pushing through push ups knowing I'd PAY for that later. I'm definitely paying for something, and that's why I want to have a handle on this if at all possible.

God please grant me the strength, the knowledge and the will to mold my body to handle the gifts that you may choose to give me.