Well, it's not noon yet and I'm already wondering what to do with my time here at home on maternity leave. Sitting and relaxing is not what I do best and I keep seeing chores that need to be done. The past couple of days have been extremely uncomfortable. My back hit a new level of screwed up and my legs and knees are feeling the pressure.
Today Bella said, "Mommy's and elephant." She's has no idea how true that feels.
I want to see this baby and hold her and coddle her, but she seems to be perfectly comfortable where she is.
I did sleep in a little this morning thanks to Tommy. Bella is here with me today but there will be times when she goes to my Mom's so I can relax a little before the big day.
I feel useless for some reason. This feeling comes every time I have to bend over and can barely stand back up without pain or grunting, and when I get angry at Bella for not standing perfectly still right in front of me while I put on her shoes. I just get frustrated with myself. I used to think of myself as a kind of supermom. The working, cooking, cleaning and childcare extraordinaire. Now I know all that credit I gave myself was bogus. Now, it's time to try doing all that with a smile and with TWO kids.
Yeah.
Pray for me.
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