I don't ever like to unload on my blog and I hate when I feel negative much less sound or come off negative socially. But there is a big reason for it today.
The relationship with my mother is exhausting. I am all she has, she says. I am the main character in her drama. This is very different from any relationship that myself, or anyone I know, has ever dealt with.
I am not equipped to be this daughter. The daughter that catches her mother when she falls, is belittled by her when she's frustrated with me, becomes irate at the insults toward me, and NEVER meets her standards.
I've stopped trying.
There is no cure for the illnesses that torture my mother. Her brain plays tricks on her and the outside world is not real, it's what her brain tells her it is.
I'm at the end with this. I am calling in new forces just for me. I am not going to let this seep into my other relationships anymore.
I'm going to employ new people or agencies, if need be, to help me.
All the others left her. I am the only one around and one cannot throw away their family.
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